a prayer.

and then it happened.
right in the middle of service.
and pastor wept.
asked the people to pray for the family of our recent loss.
such a tragedy...
(you see, a young pastor at a gen x church in waco died today. in the baptism.
an ungrounded microphone fell in the water and electrocuted him. welcome home, they say...)
such a man of God!
i could not bring myself to pray for grieving hearts.
nor could i pray for his wife and children.
only that this might reinforce to all of us that we are not in control.
i hope i never have control again.

and as the church prayed, we stopped.
and listened.
then she said, "this is what it must sound like in Gods head!"
mumbled whispers
a roar of heart!

why do we wait for crisis, a tragedy or failure before we are really really good at praying?

well! i'll be!

i am grumpy!

i hope it is because my ladies are about to visit.

no, really...

i miss my bunny!

to every woman...

"we need not be ashamed that our hearts ache; that we need and thirst and hunger for much more. all of our hearts ache. all of our hearts are at some level unsatisfied and longing. it is our insatiable need for more that drives us to our God. what we need to see is that all our controlling and our hiding, all our indulging, actually serves to separate us from our hearts. we lose touch with those longings that make us women. and the substitutes never, ever resolve the deeper issue of our souls."

i'll just take it easy

last night was casiotone for the painfully alone.
amazing, as always.

actually, this i saw him he was much more talkative
telling stories, etc...
everyone was out and about and in the best moods ever!
he played at mable peabodys... and if you missed it, i do apologize.
perhaps he will be at a club near you soon! (tour dates here >>>)
he is touring with dear nora.
her name is not nora, just so you know.
it is katy (like me! different spelling)
her voice is angelic. i cant stand it!

today includes seeing bachs minor b mass
the twins are singing in it with grad students as sophomores!
they are the youngest people in it!
my little sisters are so amazing.
i can't wait to see them.

hopefully life will come to a point where everyone can slow down and finally get to enjoy each other.
i just go and go and go and UGH.
i am tired of missing everyone.
i miss my family, who live close and i never see them.
i miss my friends who remind me how much i never go out.
i miss my boyfriend(for obvious reasons including roughly 1000 miles)
these are all temporary, though..
and i am thankful for my job.
and i am confident in God's plan!
His way is better than my own!
amen!

air filled lungs

caroline, dania and i just got back from a jog.

the weather was near-perfect and the air was just cool enough to kiss your cheeks in a way that lets you know there is still time to be alive..

i made dinner tonight.
food+friends is choice!


how great is our God?

cleaning up messes.

this would look perfect in my bedroom.

i will have it soon.

there is a reason they are called classics...

more here

also:
i just got back from a walk.
i had some awesome time with the Father.
the weather is perfect!
i had such a good day.
i only worked 9-1.
i feel awesome!
love! love! love!

frankly

the defining moment.

i am spinning.

man

he is here

and

i am wayyy in love.

!

natalie dee says it best

serious.

who knew my mind could be read

this is a dream come true:


more info here

shed some light...

who knew it would be so difficult to find a replacement lightbulb for my starck lamp.
seriously.
i love it, its beautiful.. but i'd like it much better lit up.

for those who do not know:
philippe starck is to design
as david letterman is to late night.

todays agenda:
i need to go to frisco to Gap and ikea
Gap for a return on pants that i thought were cute, but once i got them home... they were huge and too long.
ugh.
i dont know who they make them for.
ikea to try and find a lightbulb for my lamp
other than that i'm just going to hang out and try and spend some time with the Lord.
which is well deserved...

i think thats it.

who knew it would be so soon..

just so you all know,
it makes a person seem disgusting when they casually swear in their blog. or in real life..

f-bombs are sooo over.

but!
i love my new blonde hair.
i wont lie..
i feel like the sassiest, prettiest girl on earth:
(nevermind GAPPY business attire; a girls got to earn a living)



my heart couldn't beat any faster. ive been waiting six years for this...
4 days left.

praise God.
He works in ways i will never understand, but continue to give thanks for...
!!
amen

make some illinoise!

its hard to believe that in less than a week we will be sleeping under the same roof.

i am all over the place!

six days.

xoxo