God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble

"when we empty the trash from our hearts, we must be quick to fill it back up witht he Lord or else more trash will quickly fill its place"

How true is that?!
Seriously.
One of the things that I find so difficult about the christian life is the constant binge and purge of emotions. Thats not to say that I don't absolutely cherish every bit of it...it's just tiring.
So how do i find that balance?
Pull out my grace card?
I find myself using it probably too frequently, honestly, and thats something I need to change immediately.
We all do it, but how do we quit?
Its a tricky dillema.
The Lord gives us grace. Obviously it was his intention. However, we constantly do things KNOWING we are going to have to repent. So why do we continue to do these things? On paper it sounds so easy. Its so black and white. Don't sin. Do your best. If you do sin, its not necessairily okay, but you can be forgiven...we just expect change.
In real life, its less than easy. I'd go as far as to say it is a constant struggle I face.
Its that expected change that doesn't come so easy.
How do you remove the flesh from your heart?
What about ME as an individual?
Its very simple...right?
Well yes, but its also very difficult.
You have to keep yourself in constant check. Always putting yourself back in line.
Emotions are very powerful. Theres no doubt.

God is amazing in the fact that through him, we can accomplish anything we ask him to set our hearts to be ready for.
Its just a matter of actually being willing to do whatever it is he says is right.
He tells us when to put something on hold, when we need to put things aside. When we need to slow down for our own good.
I am willing. PRAISE GOD! I am finally willing.
I've said I was before, but I've held back. In some way or another. Whether it be my pride, my money, my time or even my thoughts. I havent completely given him what he deserves. Not that any of us are fully capable of giving him as much as he would ever deserve. But together in fellowship, we can at least come closer.
I've just got to keep praying and keep asking him to show me the areas of my heart that I need to work on so that I can serve him completely.

i'm reading boy meets girl
too many mentions in such a short period of time made me feel like i was delaying the inevitable.
and my goodness!
what a revelation!

my confidence in the Lord is s o a r i n g.
i am patient
yet
i can't sit still
!
praise God!

on another note:
last night i did punkrock karaoke and it was quite possibly the funnest thing ever!
stay tuned for photos.

commiting commerce

20% of americans consume 80% of the goods sold here.

all i want to do is eat cookies, knit, cry and listen to jeff tweedy sing.

oh!hormones...

to learn more, talk to your doctor

"my mother once told me that if you've already thought it you've already sinned so you might as well say it" -ashleigh

two or four bits or pieces?

One thing I have found that is most difficult in this life we have on earth, is knowing you've met [and known for the upwards of five years for that matter] the person that was made for you.
What is even more difficult is the fear of thinking how it would ever work out.
And worse yet, is the matter of completely avoiding the topic of obvious perfectness for fear you are only being humored as to not have your feelings hurt.
I'd imagine thats probably the rejected child/teenager in me.
Then again, I never offerd myself to anyone to actually get to know me until i was roughly eighteen.
I doubt I would change anything given the chance.
I battle with feelings of ultimate contentment and absolute helplessness.
This wouldn't be such a terrible thing if I was not so sure of the fact that you never get to feel like you are satisfied with what you're doing.
There will always be the constant drive inside of us to what more money/love/success/luxury items/muscles/food/(fill in the blank)/friends.

OH! to have been born a simpleton.....

I've had a good few days.
Good, not great though.

I could talk about the clothes I bought(because I bought some very nice things).
I could talk about the people I hung out with(for once, I had company).
But it really doesn't even matter..
I can not shake this vitamin taste.