God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble

"when we empty the trash from our hearts, we must be quick to fill it back up witht he Lord or else more trash will quickly fill its place"

How true is that?!
Seriously.
One of the things that I find so difficult about the christian life is the constant binge and purge of emotions. Thats not to say that I don't absolutely cherish every bit of it...it's just tiring.
So how do i find that balance?
Pull out my grace card?
I find myself using it probably too frequently, honestly, and thats something I need to change immediately.
We all do it, but how do we quit?
Its a tricky dillema.
The Lord gives us grace. Obviously it was his intention. However, we constantly do things KNOWING we are going to have to repent. So why do we continue to do these things? On paper it sounds so easy. Its so black and white. Don't sin. Do your best. If you do sin, its not necessairily okay, but you can be forgiven...we just expect change.
In real life, its less than easy. I'd go as far as to say it is a constant struggle I face.
Its that expected change that doesn't come so easy.
How do you remove the flesh from your heart?
What about ME as an individual?
Its very simple...right?
Well yes, but its also very difficult.
You have to keep yourself in constant check. Always putting yourself back in line.
Emotions are very powerful. Theres no doubt.

God is amazing in the fact that through him, we can accomplish anything we ask him to set our hearts to be ready for.
Its just a matter of actually being willing to do whatever it is he says is right.
He tells us when to put something on hold, when we need to put things aside. When we need to slow down for our own good.
I am willing. PRAISE GOD! I am finally willing.
I've said I was before, but I've held back. In some way or another. Whether it be my pride, my money, my time or even my thoughts. I havent completely given him what he deserves. Not that any of us are fully capable of giving him as much as he would ever deserve. But together in fellowship, we can at least come closer.
I've just got to keep praying and keep asking him to show me the areas of my heart that I need to work on so that I can serve him completely.