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i love you Jesus..

but i need your HELP!!

i can't do this on my own...

haircutz

here are some photos of some of the hair i've been doing lately.


enjoy!

(i have great friends+family)
clockwise from top: amanda, oksana, dania, lou

june 6

i've been feeling the effects of hard work and hard times rushing in. i have no doubt that God is faithful, but i am feeling tired. uncertainty is getting the best (or worst ) of me and i just want to sleep... but in the past, sleeping hasn't fixed anything. i know i need to press in. go deeper. i am learning how to trust God in ways i never knew existed.
discipline doesn't come easy for me and constantly i have to remind myself to be present in my struggle. its so easy to sit down and wait for it to pass... isn't it?
but what good is that going to do me?
i sound so depressed. i'm not. really. i have an amazing thing going here.. i am blessed with parents who despite our differences take great care of me, a great man who loves and supports me in ways i never knew were even possible.
i feel so selfish.
its always i, i, i.
is it wrong for me to be stressed out about money? or needing women of faith in my life? what good does it do me to complain about not eating gluten, when its just the way it is? why am i so terrified that i'm going to fail at my career. i am terrified i will never be on my feet. though nothing is certain except for the truth that the Lord is faithful..
maybe too many things are hitting at once and i don't know where to begin.
i have a tendency to blame one thing that stands out in the crowd when i have several things weighing on me...
i also tend towards detaching myself from reality. daydreamer? not really. maybe its a blank?
i have always been so neurotic...
for now i will just hope and pray

updatez

its been a few years, and so maybe now i'll pick this back up and have another go.
things are good.
an update would be that i still love jesus, i still love lou, i still love spraypaint, i still love cozy and i still love haircuts. i'm just actually officially a stylist now.
i am happy. and yes, i disappeared for two years and absolutely nothing changed.

but i'll try to keep on top of this.

welcome me back!

love,
kk

phontography

huh?

wha?

duh!


i'm prayin' for a breakthrough.....

on our trip to northpark mall..

i was adopted by a family of tuurrrtttlllesss!!!!
and i love ducks too.

cozy is so modest!

for your viewing pleasure....

i got a new lampshade. $1.49.
what a score.




in other news, i threw out my back.
ugh!

water lines

ive only had one real spring break.
why did i grow up so quick?!

i didnt spring or break anything last week.

and whatever,
why is texas flooding?

to the holidays

missing you this christmas,
i'm rooting for us...

the love

it looks like we may need to get ready for a house warming!

warm it up!!

<3

between the lions?

louis is the cutest boyfriend ever!!

me: have a good day!
him: i love you too!

and so, i continue to swoon.

waste

i love all my children(the soap)
i need to take clothes to the cleaners
i finally paid my rent
i went to the thrift store
i drank half a pot of coffee
God did a number on me today, and it was AMAZING
however...
i am being so lazy today!

as soon as oprah is over, i am going to go for a walk.

i am totally acting like a sloth
[see below for details]


i keep discovering new bruises.
it totally looks like either:
a. i am getting beaten
or
b. i party like its spring break.

fortunately i go to the oncologist on monday.
i pray this is my last visit, though i have been going to him for a year.

my to-do list keeps growing
while
my bank account keeps shrinking

i believe, dear heart.. we are having a breakthrough!

i don't know how i did it before i began to pray...

all-class

when left to me, i suggest taco bell every time.
and
i can not stop shopping.
!!
sheesh.

life is good.

stand up for what you love!

so far, today is awesome.
God-bless Lou for waking me up at 7:30 this morning to go exercize.
i had the b-e-s-t jog/hike
(i say hike because i off-roaded to the forbidden trails in the woods)
it seriously was so beautiful.
the sunshine kept breaking through the trees and kissing my face and i couldnt help but thank the Lord for the romance he's injected into nature.

!!!

it makes me so nuts!
its like...
i
am in
a love affair
with
every
tumbling
rumbling
red
green
and
gold
leaf!

WHEW

and another thing:
i should be getting ready for work..
BUT
i can't stop looking at myspace and stalking people i went to high school with.

yah, i'm not even gonna pretend i don't do it.

at least all my dishes are done.

*shrug*

there are no words

amazing. just amazing!

should someone drive me to work?

stretch goodbody

i am so achy today...
every muscle is malfunctioning.

why do i feel like i've been on a flying trapeze?

please, friends, do not ever take for granted your health.

cuddle up with your favorite blanket or boy

'"It's all right for a woman
to be, above all, human.
am a woman first of all."
- anais nin


'the ladies' have been here for a few days and i'm achin' like a sailor who cant help but miss his mother...
YOW!
bunny, i need a tum rub.
waaah...


and in less complain-y news:
lydia is moving into my house for a few days.
it'll be awesome to get to be girls and pray!
amanda is also spending the night on saturday and i am SO EXCITED
because even though i haven't met her, i hear she is amazing and is super anointed in the prophetic and YES! i am just so exicted!
plus i love playing hostess.
mainly because my house is so cute.
!
eeeek!

do not take anything for granted...

today was a pretty good day.
it started off great and just continued to be good!
at 9am i was at my desk doing paperwork, surrounded by my staff and my phone rang
typically i don't answer it, but it was my boyfriend and i thought something might be wrong
"hey i thought you were at work!"
"i am, i just got in.."
"aww i was going to leave you a cute message telling you i loved you!"
so naturally, i am blushing and my girls are all staring at me...

and anyway

it was so cute and i am still blushing.

mmmph!

things have been good as of late.
saw my friend orenda on tuesday.
i hadn't seen her in over a year, so that was awesome.
i missed her wedding (and a trip to omaha) during the beginning of all the lupus stuff...
shes pretty as ever making lovely music.


i'm getting better at this.

a prayer.

and then it happened.
right in the middle of service.
and pastor wept.
asked the people to pray for the family of our recent loss.
such a tragedy...
(you see, a young pastor at a gen x church in waco died today. in the baptism.
an ungrounded microphone fell in the water and electrocuted him. welcome home, they say...)
such a man of God!
i could not bring myself to pray for grieving hearts.
nor could i pray for his wife and children.
only that this might reinforce to all of us that we are not in control.
i hope i never have control again.

and as the church prayed, we stopped.
and listened.
then she said, "this is what it must sound like in Gods head!"
mumbled whispers
a roar of heart!

why do we wait for crisis, a tragedy or failure before we are really really good at praying?

well! i'll be!

i am grumpy!

i hope it is because my ladies are about to visit.

no, really...

i miss my bunny!

to every woman...

"we need not be ashamed that our hearts ache; that we need and thirst and hunger for much more. all of our hearts ache. all of our hearts are at some level unsatisfied and longing. it is our insatiable need for more that drives us to our God. what we need to see is that all our controlling and our hiding, all our indulging, actually serves to separate us from our hearts. we lose touch with those longings that make us women. and the substitutes never, ever resolve the deeper issue of our souls."

i'll just take it easy

last night was casiotone for the painfully alone.
amazing, as always.

actually, this i saw him he was much more talkative
telling stories, etc...
everyone was out and about and in the best moods ever!
he played at mable peabodys... and if you missed it, i do apologize.
perhaps he will be at a club near you soon! (tour dates here >>>)
he is touring with dear nora.
her name is not nora, just so you know.
it is katy (like me! different spelling)
her voice is angelic. i cant stand it!

today includes seeing bachs minor b mass
the twins are singing in it with grad students as sophomores!
they are the youngest people in it!
my little sisters are so amazing.
i can't wait to see them.

hopefully life will come to a point where everyone can slow down and finally get to enjoy each other.
i just go and go and go and UGH.
i am tired of missing everyone.
i miss my family, who live close and i never see them.
i miss my friends who remind me how much i never go out.
i miss my boyfriend(for obvious reasons including roughly 1000 miles)
these are all temporary, though..
and i am thankful for my job.
and i am confident in God's plan!
His way is better than my own!
amen!

air filled lungs

caroline, dania and i just got back from a jog.

the weather was near-perfect and the air was just cool enough to kiss your cheeks in a way that lets you know there is still time to be alive..

i made dinner tonight.
food+friends is choice!


how great is our God?

cleaning up messes.

this would look perfect in my bedroom.

i will have it soon.

there is a reason they are called classics...

more here

also:
i just got back from a walk.
i had some awesome time with the Father.
the weather is perfect!
i had such a good day.
i only worked 9-1.
i feel awesome!
love! love! love!

frankly

the defining moment.

i am spinning.

man

he is here

and

i am wayyy in love.

!

natalie dee says it best

serious.

who knew my mind could be read

this is a dream come true:


more info here

shed some light...

who knew it would be so difficult to find a replacement lightbulb for my starck lamp.
seriously.
i love it, its beautiful.. but i'd like it much better lit up.

for those who do not know:
philippe starck is to design
as david letterman is to late night.

todays agenda:
i need to go to frisco to Gap and ikea
Gap for a return on pants that i thought were cute, but once i got them home... they were huge and too long.
ugh.
i dont know who they make them for.
ikea to try and find a lightbulb for my lamp
other than that i'm just going to hang out and try and spend some time with the Lord.
which is well deserved...

i think thats it.

who knew it would be so soon..

just so you all know,
it makes a person seem disgusting when they casually swear in their blog. or in real life..

f-bombs are sooo over.

but!
i love my new blonde hair.
i wont lie..
i feel like the sassiest, prettiest girl on earth:
(nevermind GAPPY business attire; a girls got to earn a living)



my heart couldn't beat any faster. ive been waiting six years for this...
4 days left.

praise God.
He works in ways i will never understand, but continue to give thanks for...
!!
amen

make some illinoise!

its hard to believe that in less than a week we will be sleeping under the same roof.

i am all over the place!

six days.

xoxo

seriously.

i have no space for liars.

my hands are washed of it.


jack white once said...
"i'm lonely (but i aint that lonely yet)"



on a side note...
the average amaerican spends more money on their dog in one year than a nigerian man does to feed his family for a year.

and somehow this is not shocking. any of it.

put it down; get it back

i've never loved someone so much that i was willing to wait on God to give me the go-ahead.

until now.

i am starting to understand what is going on.
or at least i'm in the right direction.

i am full of joy!

i miss you//i love you.

heres to looking at you, kid

if sighing is contagious...



...then what about loneliness?


this will never stop being a fight, praise God!

I will remain passive, as it is apparent that
(for some reason or another):
I have been replaced.
or ignored.
or have overreacted.

I guess somewhere along the lines I fell away from the one friend who is forever.

it starts small... a negative thought.. ignoring the person who needs help.
it turns into greed and impatience until before you know it you are lonely and angry and hate everything you never meant to become.


Thank God for repentance!

there is one thing, however, I have learned.

suffering will not absolve you from your sins.

much to the dismay of the greater portion of Christians.

this is real

the more you hear God, the less anything else seems to matter.
through parcels and phonecalls i am learning ultimate patience.

i wouldnt change anything..
except maybe
the chance
to get to
look you in the eyes
and tell you
that i love you

faith, above all

today i realized i do not have to fight for my life.
i have never felt this before.
we are each so blessed.
grace is beauty.
amen.

simple

six days to a fresh start.

ten white knuckles.

white trash

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help! i need somebody

my 'to do' list is about a mile long
and i'm searching for eagerness.

help!

love,
katie

i'm doing my best

Christmas was awesome.
I love my sisters.
everyone was here except Gretchen, and hopefully we'll get to see her this week..
Caroline came over and we went to Shils house to feed enid
We watched Napoleon Dynamite
and complimented it with corona...

in two weeks i'll be moving into my new apartment.
i can not explain the level of elation i am at..

I've got to go pack...

I thank God for each one of you.

time off well deserved.

somehow i have remained oblivious to the fact that i've been accumulating truckloads of PTO[paid time off]
so January is going to be awesome as i have close to 3 weeks worth of vacation time i need to take that i had no idea i had..

v a c a t i o n !

God is so awesome!

tomorrow is going to be busy..
doctors appointment
apply for apartment
work 3-midnight
saturday is almost here...

dont x-out your savior

when the clock strikes eleven eleven, i can't help but make a wish.

it feels like winter in texas.
finally!

i recieved three thank-you's in the mail today.
all for unrelated things
and boy am i glad those are popular again.
thank-you's i mean.

thank God for every breath thats in these lungs.
for every stone unturned
and the doors we have yet to open
for the renewal of our minds
the breaking of our hearts
and the healing of our hopes.

thank God for not seeing
but knowing.

all these lists of gifts
for[giving]
and
for[getting]

have we forgotten the true meaning of christmas?

pajama party

i must have the cutest kitty on earth!

i have the day off
and i dont have 900 things to do
praise God!
Caroline and I are going to go apartment hunting.
[hopefully]
thats the plan, though i havent heard from her.
hopefully we get together early so i can go to church tonight.

I'm starting to get really excited about moving.

fresh start

i had x rays on my chest, back and abdomen
blood drawn
and an EKG
i also got to get naked for a woman
talk about excitement!
4 prescriptions later, heres to hoping i am on the highway to health..

WHEW.

is it january yet?

foosh ball

i am quite fond of dance dance revolution.

phone call

"if this is only a test
i hope that i'm passing
'cause i'm losing steam
and i still want to trust you"

something about the holidays makes me wish i could fight through them in peace.

this is the first year in a series of many that i wont be on routine, and though i will admit i am over it...i still have to figure out what to do with myself.

things are changing and i just can't help but praise god.

we had turkey of the "oprahs favorite things 2003" persuasion
trade in your trouser socks for slippers
i cant help but go home alone to shine my pointy shoes.

safety in numbers

"I wish I could melt the miles into minutes,
and hold you in my arms for hours;
letting you know that it's all going to be alright"


((...and it will be alright
I know everything will be fine))